creative · growth, self awareness, · parenting · rehabilitation

Plan to Create Success

““But don’t begin until you count the cost. For who would begin construction of a building without first calculating the cost to see if there is enough money to finish it?”
‭‭Luke‬ ‭14‬:‭28‬ ‭NLT‬‬

Creative people tend to be more impulsive than most people. That’s our charm, grace, and character. Our biggest challenge in the life journey is harnessing that impulsive energy into discipline. I face this everyday. Of course it doesn’t help me to have a successful day if I don’t plan the day beforehand.

I find myself in the middle of a rip current that will keep pulling me away from my goals if I don’t structure my time. I’m thankful for this scripture that gives me direction. It’s true. I have started many projects without any plan of how much time I have to complete them.

I think for anyone who finds them self at the center of “the hearth” face the frustration that interruption brings. I have a choice; get upset and angry at all who infringe upon my time or plan my time ahead and restrategize when derailing occurs.

I am in control of how I react to frustration and interruptions that are unforeseen. My response and reaction influence my ability to make tomorrow better than today.

creative · growth, self awareness, · parenting

Almost Grown

He will never know the pride and joy I feel when I watch him blow out the makeshift match-candles until it’s his turn. When he has his children, then he will know. But not yet.

I remember the birthday parties when he was little. I had to lead the group in the activities. Not anymore.

I listened as their conversation turned from Pokémon to voting. Through their words I was able to hold onto the boy and the man. Happy birthday Justin! May your boyhood sweetness make you a strong, sensitive man.

growth, self awareness, · reward, grit

Menopause

Daily writing prompt
What is the greatest gift someone could give you?

I say this because it is the only time in a woman’s life when she finally listens to her heart. It’s when she finally realizes she doesn’t have to follow the rules, and the kids will be just fine. They can manage on their own. It’s a time when I will finally focus on myself and what makes me happy. It’s also a time for me to focus on what matters to me. I might discover what I really wanted to be when I grew up.

I’ve just learned from Dr. Marie Claire Haver that I’ve been floundering because of my latest life stage. I’ve learned that I should pat myself on the back for surviving as well as I have. I thought that I must be going crazy or falling into bipolarism. (As if that was a thing.) But it’s truly due to my body changing from the effects of the food and my past choices. Who knew that those days on the top of the tar roof or down on the driveway with only a towel between me and the hot tar would cause my skin to drop all forms of collagen and collapse wherever visible? But I digress. 

Really. Everything she said in the podcast with “Diary of a CEO” was very relevant and helpful. I recommend any female thirty-five or older to listen to it. She makes the biggest point (no pun intended), when she states that menopause is about shrinking gonads, and if men’s gonads were at risk of shrinking, there would be a serious platform to change the situation. Because we are women, we are expected to smile and wave.

So, as a help, I’ve ordered her book The New Menopause by Dr. Marie Claire Haver, which isn’t out yet. I will read it and order other copies as soon as I am able, so that I may send my opinion to the publisher’s pocketbook. Since money speaks louder than words, I think it will make a statement much like the suffragettes did for voting.

creative · rehabilitation · reward, grit

Motivation

What motivates you?

My motivation whelling up from the innermost depths, looking for the validation of service as I do what my inner voice craves. I strive to complete the daily vision that validates my motivation. Sometimes it’s good but sometimes it’s hard to accept the struggle, when the goal is just out of reach.

I often think how will it happen? How will I continue to help my son make progress after such a tragic childhood? I use my faith in heaven and Jesus to claim the best quality of life for him. It tasks me. I can’t lie. The rewards wouldn’t be so wonderful if I didn’t struggle. The human desire for reward is so innate, it won’t be ignored.

And so, I press on.